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Bored.
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I tentatively planned to go out today to take some photos of some things that would catch my fancy. But, of course, that plan did not materialize. I and Tia slept really late last night, and when I woke up, she was still sleeping. It was not early morning, almost noon when we woke up, and so I decided to let me sleep in some more.
By the time, my husband went out to some work that he had to do. So I stay in bed and watched more movies on Astro Movie Channels. I got bored, so I channel hopped afterwards.
See how boring a sahm’s could be? I don’t work, and I don’t plan to work for the time being, really, but my life is boring. Oh, I know, some working mothers would scoff at my statement above, after all they would really want to stay at home full time and take care of their kids.
Nothing is wrong with that. Mothers who had to send their kids off to the daycare or nursery would wish that they could take care of their kids themselves, especially if the kids were a little bit clingy. I know I would be affected, too, should Tia were to scream whenever I sent her off to school. But, that’s beside the point, and I am going off tangent here.
What I am saying is, I feel like doing things for me. I had spent all these three and a half years taking care of Tia, and I am tired. When she was younger, it was easy. But now, it is really not.
The idea of working is quite scary. I have not worked for the last 4 ½ years. And I wonder what I could do now if I do want to work. I could probably teach. But then I would have to get teacher’s certificate. And that would take around 1-1 ½ years to finish one.
Would I want to do that, though?
I read Literature at school, so naturally one would thought that I would want to be a teacher.
I did that because that was the only thing that I did quite well.
It doesn’t mean that I wanted to be a teacher.
Though there is nothing wrong being a teacher. I have lots of friends who are great teachers.
But I don’t see myself being one.
Great or teach.
So how, eh?
P/S I know some mothers would say that they had been taking care of their kids all these while and not get bored at all. Some would think that I would be a bad mother if I even think of wanting to have some me time. Like I said again, this is what I am feeling right now. I don’t expect anyone to agree, though I know some would not.
Hi hon,
Awww cummonn.. don’t feel like that. I mean on feeling guilty for wanting to do something for yourself. It’s perfectly ok to wanna be doing something besides what you do now. Doesn’t mean you a bad mother. You are a good mother who also wanna be doing something else. That’s all.
*hugs
opss.. tertinggal.
Whatever it is that you plan to do, do not become a teacher ( I’m bad, uh? ) ! I have 2 sisters and 1 bro in law.. all teachers and they are complaining that a teacher’s work is becoming ridiculously not acceptable. Teaching priority has gone down the list as a teacher is being burderned with all sorts of other work instead.
Hi MaR.. nice blog..I feel the same.. I have 3 kids..2 of them are teenagers.. and sometimes I felt guilty for not sending them to boarding school.. Its really tiring .. not that I don’t love them.. Its that ever since I became a mother.. I have never had any time for myself..I even stop going to a hair salon.. I manage to learn to cut my hair myself.. Pity me eh..Anyway.. nice knowing you…
wowww.. first.. the donuts do look good! is that JCo or Big Apple? I prefer JCo even the taste is quite the same…
feeling bored? I know how that feels. tapi nak buat cemana erk??? kasik lah tia adik.. hee.. hee…
I ada 3 orang anak.Depend on what day kalau orang tanya i:)..mana i prefer kerja atau duduk rumah jaga anak.Sekarang still i suka duduk rumah jaga anak..dan kalau i keluar kerja sekejap i akan rasa bersalah sebab tinggalkan mereka.I hantar diaorang pergi child center bukan i tak nak jaga cuma i mahu dia bersosial dengan budak-budak lain saja.
MArrnih cha.. soli lama tak contact ko pekabo? sehat???? kalu rajin kan Ym dgn aku k kimsalang dekat mak bapak n baby tia
aida,
. And tu lah kan, contrary to what some folks might think, susah jadi cikgu ni…
Thank you for always being kind
Tie,
Yes, I definitely faham what you are saying.
Thanks for visiting, ya?
kak MB,
Big Apple la kak. Tak penah makan JCo. Jakun kan den?
Kasi adik kat dia? Hehhehe…
Wangi,
Halu. Yeah, I know. Betoi lah, bebudak yg tak dihantar ke full time daycare mmg should go to playgroup ke apa to kawan2 sikit…
cha,
Aku ym kadang2, tapi hang tarak. Insya Allah ok hon…
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